Strange Mood

Here I sit at the counter in the kitchen of a duplex I have lived in for almost four years. I don't own this home, I rent it from the government for about $500 a month. Its an ok place to live in. There a many changes I would make if I owned it but Eric laid down the law about spending any more money on changes that we can't take with us. Not sure why I just rambled on about my living situation - just know that today feels a little strange.

Didn't get much sleep last night, Orion was uppity and the fussy monster was alive and well. He slept for 6 hours until 3:30am and then all hell seemed to break loose. Eric took him downstairs and I tried to sleep but you know that was an impossible dream. I managed to do OK at work today - fueled by coffee and the blue skies outside. It's funny how unimportant many things seem under a hazy sleep deprived fog. Like the fact that a these people who credential the hospital are coming on Thursday and I am supposed to know or care about QA/PI projects. In fact, I just recently learned what QA/PI stands for...Quality Assurance/Project Improvement. Did you know that?

I ordered a coffee table online - who in the hell does that? Overstock rocks for random things like that plus you can't beat their shipping. It cost $2.95 to ship to the middle of no-where. Well the much anticipated coffee table arrived yesterday and is still in the box. Anyone who knows me knows this is very out of character. I like to have shit put away and organized but I just can't seem to get my act together. When I do I will post a picture of the table.

My friend Karin turned 36 today. Her friend, Kathryn took her to this amazing restaurant in Seattle called Palisades. I have only eaten there once - for a work retreat - when I worked at Rotary Boys and Girls Club. It was fantastic and I wish I could eat there right now.

Relieved

I feel so relieved. I was supposed to start back to work full time in February and as the days were speeding by towards February I started to panic. I mean I love my job and what I do but how on earth could I leave little toots for 8 hours every day. I started to break into a sweat just thinking about it. Well, I went into work yesterday for a meeting and told my bosses that I wanted to work half days for another month or so and they just looked at me and basically said "whatever" YEAH! That takes a load off of my peanut brain!

My Little Gansta Boy...

I also wanted to post a picture of the most amazing Mexican Wedding Cookies ever. My friend Ansu was in Albuquerque and brought back this luscious treat for me. She brought me back both chocolate and vanilla and I have never had the chocolate before and let me tell you they are freaking fantastic. These cookies are made at the Golden Crown Bakery and if you are ever in Albuquerque this is definitely an interesting little bakery to check out.

Inauguration Day

Thanks for the link Katy...

OK OK OK its really MLK Day...My Bad!

OK...I did it

I survived. I started back to work, yep back to work the kind you get a paycheck to do. Not the kind I have been doing for the past 3 months. Not the breastfeeding, diaper changing, up in the middle of the night kinda work. No sireeee, honest to goodness, punching the clock kinda work. I am working part time for the month of January and then will go back full time in February.

This week however was a little different. There was a 4 day get away to Taos, NM that we went on with a bunch of other families in our neighborhood. It was great. We stayed in this amazing house with crazy icicles (that I will post a pix of soon) 14-16 adults, 6 kids, 4 SUV's, 10 sets of skis, 3 sleds and a partridge in a pear tree. I got my yearly skiing in and almost killed myself on what Taos Ski Valley calls a green run - more about that story later, suffice to say it involves ski patrol, a steep slope, a snowmobile and one hell of a tired woman.

In order to have these 4 days off in a row, I had to work 8 hour days for the past two days and this is really what this post is about. Kooky, crazy and a bit manic as well. Trying to divide up my day and divide my brain as well. Trying to find a balance between providing good patient care and care for my son and husband. Trying to remember to bring everything I need to work and while I am there trying to remember to pump breast milk so my breasts don't explode. Trying not to bring home too many germs from too many strangers.

I survived, I did it and now on this Friday night I have a whole 3 day weekend in which to relish time with Big Dog, Little Dog and Bella the Wonderdog. Cheers my friends to a weekend with loved ones.

Happy 3 Month Birthday, Baby!

One Month Old Two Months Old3 months old and not too happy to have his picture taken tonight!

Ohhh Thank Heaven For Little Boys

I knew it would happen sooner or later and tonight was the night. It's not like this was the first time that a strong stream of urine came shooting out at me but this was the first time that it so thoroughly soaked me and my jeans.

Exhausted...

I am so freaking tired right now. We have been out of town for the past 5 weeks and we screeched into Fort yesterday afternoon in time to unload the car, get the 10 boxes of mail that were on hold, eat dinner and head out to a new years eve celebration. Don't get me wrong it has been a great break from life on the rez but man oooohhhh man does it feel good to be home and sleeping in my own bed. Now if I could just convince my son it's ok to sleep in his own bed. Orion is crazy today and I really can't blame him...we drag him through 5 states, lock him in the carseat, keep him out late and pass him around like a good drink. We are working on this sleeping thing and holy shit nobody tells you how hard the sleeping thing can be. Nights are fine its the naps during the day that are killing me. I wish I had more days before I have to go back to work. I am scared that I won't like my work as much because really does any patient need you more then your child?

Things that need to get done:

1. I need to go to bed

2. The boxes of christmas presents need to get opened and put away

3. mail christmas letter to Vlad

4. put together box of treats to send to katy

5. clean out the magazine rack

6. start the new bread recipe

7. figure out how to change the script and the layout of the title for this blog

8. check work email before monday - yuck!

ok - I feel a bit better after writing this junk down. Will see if there is any interesting pix to post.